NEW LOOK

Ok so I know there are a lot of other people with the same look but its very new for me, I cut my hair which isn't new but I added bangs.? I am trying to get used to it, what do you think?

should I keep them or sweep them to the side? be honest & let me know what you think!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

GENTRY LYNN (Boo).... I can't believe that your going to be a freshman in high school! your getting so big, it makes me sad but I am so proud of you, your such a great girl you have already been through so much at such a young age but you are so smart and mature, and such a great example! you already know who you are and who you want to be and what you want to accomplish in life, something a lot of people don't figure out a little later in life! your such a beautiful, funny girl & we love you so much! sorry we couldn't be there this year, we really missed you! Hope you had such a great day sorry this is a couple days late... But

we love you! Happy Birthday Boo!

LoVe DaY...

This year for Valentines Kyle and I just stayed home. Kyle gets done with work on Thursdays and we have the rest of the weekend to spend time with each other, this weekend we got to have an extra day he had Monday off and I was so excited! Thursday Kyle was sick so he didn't end up going to work so we were lazy all day, until Kyle started feeling better. into Friday we went Vegas to the the new mall called Town Center I love that place! we did a little shopping and Kyle of course had to stop by yogurtland, we then went and ate at a very delicious steakhouse at South Point it was very good! We then went home and watched movies all night! Saturday we slept in, I know I am horrible I didn't make Kyle a cute Valentines breakfast, Kyle needed to go back into Vegas to exchange his shirts he got the day before, so we went back into Vegas and exchanged the shirts and Kyle being the amazing hubby he is let me get some more clothes I got a church outfit and you have no clue how excited I was because since we have moved down here I have not been able to find church outfit where the skirt wasn't too short, I have been wearing the same skirt and shirt to church for a year and a half, so I was pretty excited! we then went to eat at the outback I love there bread there! we then went back home and watched some more movies! It was a great relaxing weekend Oh I did make a heart shaped chocolate cake for kyle it was pretty good the frosting was a little messy and I'm not that great at baking! but Kyle liked it so that's all that matters! Hope everyone had a great Valentines Day!

**Last week I headed up to Utah Wednesday and stayed at my parents I had a doctors appointment to discuss what they had found in my surgery, it went good! The last I had talked about what was going on I was confused and frustrated and hurt, but I'm OK I still get down and frustrated but I am doing really good! I had some good talks with my amazing hubby & my wonderful family and I am going to try and look up, yes I have to deal with this the rest of my life but I am only 22 and I can get in control of this now! So the doctor wanted me to take the shots but I just kept feeling like before I do that I need to try a couple of other things Kyle agreed so we are trying some different options, we will see how it works out and hopefully we will have some good news within 3-6 months! :) so that was my Wednesday and Thursday events.

**Friday we went to Kole's basketball game in Delta with Kailee and Kael. we even stopped and got some "squeaky cheese!" while we were there! Kole did such a good job!! he had a great game and we are all so proud with how hard he has been working! we then headed back to Robert's house and chatted for a while.

**Saturday Kyle and I went up north early in the morning to do a little shopping for each other for our Valentines gift, we then went to pick up my mom's birthday present that all of us pitched in to get it for her, its a picture she has wanted for a while, its a Liz Lemmon Swindle picture my mom loves her paintings she is amazing! My family still hadn't arrived up north yet so we decided we would go visit Kailee and Kael and hang out at there place for a while! we finally ended up going to Olive Garden to eat for my mom's birthday, we then went to movie that we shouldn't of even went to because it was dumb!! then we went to Kade and Meg's and gave my mom her gift she loved so much she cried! Happy Birthday Mom! we all love you!

**Sunday we woke up late and headed down to Mayfield and my mom had made dinner for all of us before we headed home, I wasn't feeling to well and when we finally made it home it was worse, Kyle once again took care of me and now I am camped out on our couch with horrible head ache, sore throat, nausea, and ear aches on both sides hopefully I will get over this quick! anybody know any secrets to get rid of any of these symptoms fast??

DO YOU KNOW....
HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU! BECAUSE IF YOU DON'T,
WELL HERE YOU GO!

We have been married for 1 year & a 1/2, and we keep growing closer and closer together. We have been through many trials together while we were dating and now as husband & wife but we manage to get through them and that's what makes us grow closer! I think this trial we are going through now is one of our biggest but many more are to come, I am confident we will get through them together, the way you have takin care of me the past two weeks makes me fall in love with you even more! you have been amazing and I thank you for that!

Kyle has been so amazing to help me out the past couple of weeks since I have to stay down, his days have consisted of going to work at 3 am untill 6 pm, coming home taking care of the dogs & checking on me, running to the grocery store, stopping at the Inside scoup and grabbing some dinner and desert, coming home putting away the groceries, doing some quick wash, eating our dinner and then going to bed! I think he is a little pooped and I don't blame him! but he has been such a big help and I am just so thankful for him to be helping me and to have such an amazing hubby to be there for me not just physically but emotionally too, I have been so up and down lately that I'm driving myself crazy! but he has been there when I need a shoulder and has been there when I need a good laugh, and man can he make me laugh, he is such a goof and knows exactly how to make me happy!

I LOVE YOU BABE! THANKS FOR ALL YOU DO!

Picture Overload**

They are out of order but this is a little review of our Holidays in Sanpete!

This is a day of sledding at my parents house, we had a lot of fun! don't mind my awesome freakin beanie its all I had and I hate when my head gets cold!

Christmas night at the hospital after Dejanae was born! The picture below this one is Kade showing us Dejanae since we couldn't go in for a little while, he was so proud!

Christmas morning eating grapefruit sprinkled with sugar for breakfast!
Christmas Eve after opening our pj's, Kyle wouldn't put his on for the picture!

This is the family listening to my mom read the Christmas story!

Gentry and Kyle being dorks together as usual!

Bubbas opening his pj's! He is such a stud!
we had so much fun this year for Christmas and New Years, spending time with both our families and friends!

Hopes up once again!

All of you know that I went into surgery yesterday (Tuesday), & in my last post I had explained how excited I was that I wasn't going to have to take that dumb shot! I obviously spoke to soon! this is how it all turned out!

I had to be at the hospital by 8:45 a.m. everything was going smoothly, I loved my nurses they made me feel extremely comfortable and made me laugh like crazy! I prayed and prayed like crazy all morning! I then signed thousands of consent forms while laughing some more at my nurses! They were then ready for me to go into surgery my mom, sister & I then said a prayer as I was getting rolled into the freezing cold surgery room there was a view of the Provo mountains and I couldn't help but think that after this surgery things would be changing I didn't know how I just knew they were, they got me all hooked up to all the computers and screens and some more things that I have no clue what they were, I then thought I better get in one last prayer before I doze off.

The next thing I can remember is being in the recovery room and the nurses telling me to breath, I guess I didn't do to well under the anethesia, it was a little too strong for me and my body would over relax. I fell back to sleep and woke back up in my room with my sister and mom I looked at the clock and it was past 2:00 I knew that if the surgery went well it was only supposed to only last a half hour but if they had found something it would had taken longer so I thought they found endometriosis not a big surprise! I asked my mom what they had found and she said well Lind they found a lot of endometriosis you have stage 4, but they also found a giant cycst as big as a large orange, now with cyst they usually go away on there own but if they get to about 8cm you have to remove them, mine was about 10-12cm my doctor has no clue how he missed it especailly doing a pap the day before just to specifically to look for a cyst. Because the cycst was so big and hadn't disappeared on its own I was lucky I had gone in for surgery because if it had burst on its own I would have bled to death, and because it did get so big without bursting that was a big concern they are now running test on the cyst to see if it is cancerous.

So because of the outstanding cyst and outstanding amount of endometriosis I have to do the shot and not only just for the 4 months but for 6 months to a year.... and because of endometriosis I only have 50/50 chance of having a child, so we definatly won't be trying for next month for a child or for a year for that matter.

I know this is all on the Lord's time and I know everything happens for a reason, & more people out there has it way, way, WAY worse than I and I know so many people are praying for me and I really appreciate it so much! I just don't think this is going to be easy for me & I'm sorry if that affends some of you, but let me just explain one thing ever since I was young I have wanted to be a stay at home mom I have never wanted a big career I just wanted to have a family and I know I will some day but this is horrible news to me and I don't know what to do or say or even how to act about it any more I know I need faith and I do, I just need to figure out how I feel right now and it may take some time, I'm sorry I don't mean to complain because I am the last one that should, but I know some friends and family wanted to know what had happened yesterday, and that's it. horrible news, thank you for all your prayers and concerns but the Lord just had different plans for us right now.